Bedtime Deepak.

My boyfriend has been performing in Auburn, NY for the past 6 weeks and I am stuck alone in his gorgeous apartment in NYC. It's hard for me to fall asleep without our evening conversations so I have been forced to turn to Deepak Choprah to help woo me into slumber on a positive note. Last night, just before I drifted off, Deepak says (in an old youtube video) something along the lines of: It's not about achieving things, or getting something so you can be happy.....it's about being happy so you can get the things you want. Oh Deepak...you are so right! I feel that my entire life is a battle of not being a sad stack of pancakes! We all have what it takes to be happy right here and right now. This morning I woke up with feelings of depression and inadequacy and I looked around I realized I'm living in Chelsea in my dream apartment and my boyfriend who loves me more than anyone (even though I AM cosntantly a depressing sad stack of pancakes) is coming home on Thursday. What he hell is my problem? I will myself to be happy!